October 22, 2014

I am a working mom

I struggle a lot with seeing SAHM's, moms who work from home, moms who work part-time, women who aren't moms yet that stay home and don't work, empty nesters, etc. struggling with my lifestyle.

My lifestyle choice?
To be a full time working mom while my husband goes to school full time.
No, he isn't working while he goes to school.  He is usually on campus 8am-8pm most days.

I have my degree, have a good job that provides, and I choose to support him through school.

How many blogs do you read that have a full time working mom putting her husband through school?
I can't find any and I really wish I could to see their survival techniques!

So I will try to post from time-to-time how I am surviving or just breathing to get by.

Not a lot of people understand my position.

Someone inviting me to go do an evening activity- when I know Cabe will be home and can watch Little Turbo.
But I haven't seen my LT all day, I usually see him for about 2-3 hours a day.
yes, 95% of the time I am going to turn someone down because I want to be with my family that I rarely see.

I do let my church callings slide a little because the nights I get home at 6:30, have an activity at 7, that's not enough time to make a decent dinner.  I am going to skip the activity so I can make dinner and put my child to bed.

I may duck out of Sunday School sometimes early so I can watch LT singing in nursery.
I may sometimes let him stay up a bit late because I just want to play with him.

But these times are too short and I will not miss out on anything with my husband and child because of outside sources.

October 14, 2014

I Shoulda Been (Weekend of Coulda Been's)

Friday was a rough day- couldn't have been cause it was my first full Friday working in a month, right?
I just didn't feel right- stomach and back ache.  And overall ache.
So I spent most of the weekend with this achiness but not feeling completely sick.

We still did family pictures on Saturday and I put on a brave face (despite not wanting/taking the time to get the Target brand of spanx to help me with my dress).

I had a flip out at Cabe that I couldn't do the pictures cause it was too many layers to wear (it was like 65 degrees outside).
Then he had a flip out that his arms looked too big in his shirt (mmm, muscles but he's trying to tone down).

And Little Turbo looked adorable, had a great nap, but then saw the playground where we were and didn't cooperate.

We're moving soon.
The house blew up.
New hand me downs from SIL for Little Turbo all over the couches.

So it was the weekend of Shoulda/Coulda Beens but I don't regret it today.
While I am at work, and Cabe is home on fall break, I actually feel AMAZING in comparison to the weekend and am getting a lot done at work.

So without touch up here are a few favorites from Saturday...
Poor Cabe felt so bad.  I am used to gripping Simon when he trips so I just lay him down softly on the grass.  It was hilarious though!

Our cheesy boy who was so upset to do pictures suddenly pulled us in for a cute shot (where he looks JUST LIKE DAD at that age)

Loves holding our hands

Cute little dimples!

I think this is the best shot we got.

Loving the fall in Utah this year.  So bright with colors, lasting longer, cool weather.

If only I had the week off with Cabe for fall break....

October 6, 2014

Where am I now... Taking Stock

Taking Stock:

Making: a list of everything we can sell/donate/keep/store for the move
Cooking: Pizza night is Tuesday night. All other nights are staring into the cupboard with no ideas night
Drinking: Propel Berry. It's free from work. And I don't have to clean a cup to drink it.
Reading:  Blogs. When I have a spare moment I am reading The Butterfly Box series
Wanting: to be home and not at work so I can get packing!
Looking: for a hotel in downtown SLC for the Cabe's fall break
Playing: blocks with the Little Turbo
Wasting: time building a blog for my sister
Wishing: Cabe was close to graduation so I could house hunt more seriously
Enjoying: every little change that comes with a 2 year old's imagination
Waiting: for 5pm and the drive home
Liking: my Halloween decor in my cubicle
Wondering: what we can do downtown during the fall break
Loving: that the whole family went to the Ranch for conference weekend
Hoping: that it doesn't snow until after Halloween
Marveling: at how much STUFF we have
Needing: to clean out the laundry room. it's a BIG laundry room.
Smelling: in my dreams- oranges and rain
Wearing: my cute eyelet lace shirt
Following: the email train from my sister and us chatting about our STUFF
Noticing: that it's after 4pm- suh-weet!
Knowing: I need to start eating healthier. Drat the cafeteria having a Skor bar!
Thinking: about the jetted tub in our new place...
Feeling: anxious and excited! I love cleaning
Bookmarking: family picture ideas
Opening: my Halloween decor despite the pending move
Giggling: When the 2 year old decides to talk on the phone, at 11pm, super hyper. That was fun.
Feeling: happy cause Cabe's test went well this morning and he's doing SO good at school this semester.

life is actually really good now despite moving to a smaller place soon.
But a humbling experience will be worth it!

We are moving into the basement of this house (ignore the ramp on the porch- MIL broke her ankle and had to use a scooter the last couple months)
Most of the inside is under construction right now but the basement has two new rooms and a new bathroom. We are very grateful!

September 29, 2014

MIA- wish it was NA

Life takes over again- with school starting for Cabe right after our health scares for him, taking Little Turbo to grandma's every day for babysitting (thank you mom!), church callings, etc things have been a bit nutso.

And to add to it- we are moving this month.
To add to that- I accidentally text the Bishop in our church that I was upset we never had parties and we should have a fall/Halloween party.  Oops- I am now in charge.  Dang it.  :)

I will try to be better about taking more pictures, posting them, and maybe figuring out how to do that from my new smart phone since we finally converted a month ago.

But here's a recent photo that says it all:

September 12, 2014

Getting Younger Again

I had heard that once you hit 30 years old you start going backward in age again.
Therefore I am 29 and will be 28 next week.
Which means I will finally be the same age as my husband when his birthday comes in a couple months!

So my birthday is next week.
It used to be my favorite day of the year- fall starting, cooler weather, it just felt fresh and fun when there are no other holidays around.

Growing up we always did my birthday up one of the canyons- leaves changing, a small hike, good food, and just simple.  My love language is not presents- just being around people and knowing they helped plan and come is my favorite.

So I am hoping this year we can do that again- just make it all about the family getting together, up the canyon, and having some good BBQ and s'mores.

And of course getting my buy one/get one free coupon from Tucanos to go to lunch with Cabe.  SOOO GOOD.  Brazilian lemonade with guava added, deep fried bananas (which I am slightly allergic to but can't resist), on and on.

So though I may not enjoy getting older I really enjoy my birthday, being around people, and the FOOD.

And the fact that this year Little Turbo's favorite song is Happy Birthday.  It's the song he chose last night to sing before bed.  Love that little guy!

August 29, 2014

An Embarrassment

Life has been busy since we moved back into our old home (lived there first month of marriage, moved to student housing for about a year, then to an Uncle's rental basement for 6 months, then back to our condo).

And I am normally very very clean.
But life got busier with a child, Cabe in school full time and not working anymore, my new job that I travel with, on and on.

Apparently the one thing I let slide in the house was deep cleaning the shower.
So one Saturday morning I couldn't take it anymore.

Gross right?  This was the worst corner so it's my example.

Scrubbed this baby to death with a hard bristled brush and my cleaning solution:
vinegar and dawn soap.
So this is the after shot of scrubbing- TONS better but still those nasty spots of mold.
(awfully blurry but on phone camera)

Everyone has been pinning this one from Pinterest.
Take some of that cotton from doing perms, soak it in bleach, and put along the edges.

I forgot gloves and didn't have any.
So I used a plastic spoon to lift it out of the bleach and push it into the edges.
Then I turned on the bathroom fan, a fan at the door, and we went out and did errands.

When we got home that night I used the spoon to lift away the cotton and it was SO white!
Still needs one more touch up but I am loving the cleaner shower.

And have become obsessive with using a squeegee to get the excess water off the walls and door.

So there you have it- my embarrassing before and after.

August 21, 2014


We finally heard from Cabe's doctor's- we received great news!

His kidney looks great (they were worried his anti-rejection meds were hurting it), his liver looks good (no signs of rejection) but there are some fatty deposits on it.

So no new medication for the liver, just some high blood pressure meds (which can be normal for transplant patients) and we're going on a strict diet- again.
But this time we know we have to stick with it.

You can see his blog post about it here- Finding My Story.

So we're relieved, thankful, and and excited for the great news!
A little hike we did the other night up Albion Basin.  GORGEOUS!